1. |
Opaque
02:01
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Trap with the mastodon
Black path and the wrath is long
Back pack and a mask put on
So late but we dragging on
Blow flames til the dragon's gone
Soul lays with broke fate passed it on
I never acted wrong
Passive til i'm stranded on Avalon
Blasted with the vagabonds
Never listen when they ramble on
I think that we're fake
I think that we're lost
Making mistakes
Drink til we fade
Like everything written
I think that we'll fade
Drifting away
Breaking the trust
Feelings opaque
Wishing to break
Why am i here am i dead or awake
We've seen the crest and we've seen the waves
Cut scene of my death in a sea of flames
Can't seem to believe that the secrets came
We just want to see if kings can bleed the same
Can't dream if we dont sleep
Don't sleep so we dont dream
Cold feet indigo speak
Broke peace interval breach
Ghosts creep when we grow weak
Shatter the plea
I'm feeling inadequate
I have been talking to mannequins
Life is a feeling for masochists
Feeling abandoned when i'm wrapped in bandages
I am the catalyst
I am antagonist
Ravage the pack when i rise to the challenges
Action is blind to the catalyst
Looking for hope in a world that's inanimate
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2. |
Masochist
02:16
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Laying in the dirt since birth
All of my worth was purged
All of my worth was purged
All of my worth
Masochist hanging in the black abyss
Pathogen that's slashing wrists
Soon enough we're all gonna abandon ship
Pacifist in action bliss
Longing for your happiness
You can raise the roof and i'll hang from it
I'm often an addict
These actions speak louder than habits
What matters when chatters a hazard swagger is battered
Enamored with hammers to scatter banter without a consequence
Blame it on yourself when you're lost inside incompetence
Laying in the dirt since birth
All of my worth was purged
All of my worth was purged
All of my worth
Lost and still haven't awakened
Breaking the hatred and have been
Taking the blade to their faces
Say that they've gone and betrayed
The pages we're taking to graves
From pagans that have it engraved
In veins and i take it in vain
Trying to vacate this brain
What do they know
Mannequin vacant in soul
Now they be taking a blow
Say to let go
Hatred engraved in the stone
Kill to be king of the throne
Leave me alone
Taking your throat
Get off my back when i get in the zone
Nothing is left and there's nothing unknown
Life isn't here no we're not in control
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3. |
Never Afraid
02:51
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burning a bridge
scatter the ash
keep moving forward i never look back
think that emotion is something i lack
never invested the plan of attack
these days are so gray
not asleep im not awake
talk has been cheap, talking to sheep
know there's no way that i'm changing my fate
i've been lost in the thought i exhausted my brain
but the cost that it brought had me burned at the stake
plee'ing for freedom you see that i'm weak
but you can't feel the heat when you're laying the flames
numb when the day came
cut from the same vein
life wasn't maintained
lie in my grave
a world in decay we're so often betrayed
by the ones that are closest i cannot relate to you
on an odyssey
heard the voices talk to me
im an oddity
but god damn they're so odd to me
they're so lost and bleak
not unique and obsolete
i brought the death i brought the peace
im nodding off i'm not asleep
breaking away and embracing the pain
make a mistake i'm erasing your brain
i'm never really one to contemplate
but the people around are so often and fake
know that i'm going to break
leave me alone to sedate
lay in my grave
this world in decay
i want to degrade
the ones that i hate
i'm never afraid of them
never afraid of them
broken and knowing i'm hopeless
loathing each moment i'm stoic
over exposing these woes
the omens have spoken their motives
soaking in sulfur it's over
smoking most potent of roses
focus been over provoked
can choke on my throat any moment
can't fake the truth we break the noose
want to pick another road that the pain induced
the flames pollute my veins acute
want to get rid of the chain ingrained in you
i'll change the mood
my brain obtuse
i'll take a tooth
we aim to shoot
i'm breaking through
the day reduced
sedate the rage you're taking to
fuck you
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4. |
Speak Of The Devil
02:40
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i'm lucifer puffin a loosie
the days are so gloomy
you harbor the hate to see through me
my death will bring beauty
i dont think i'm human
i crawl through the sewers
i'm bringing the doom
assuming the truth when they hate what we say
they hate what we say
a sinner a saint
when the devil's awake
we're burning a bridge like we're burning the sage
burning the page
hurting since birth i'm the worst but the vermin's returning to grave
discerning my worth never yearn for the purge learned to lay in the dirt of suburban decay
a serpent that cannot be slain
searching for worth is my fate
worthless the verdict, my soul is a slave
hurt from the curse i hate what i what i became so assert in the gray
Lost in the remedy
Lost in the remedy
Lost in the remedy
All fucked up i've been lost in the remedy
i'm looking through a pair of eyes
want to try to live and die as a parasite
tripping out never not feeling terrified
sink in doubt but i'm really only scared of life
live to die when we're dead inside, share a vice
live the right way prepared to die
where am i? kept my head in sky head is light
mind has been gone think it's time that i get it right
seven lives - seven knives
gotta dig another grave never wrong when i sever ties
dead to rights i've been dead inside debt is blind
dead'll rise we are feeling lost we are dead tonight
bright lights in my thoughts we dont wear disguise
hind sight so distraught need to get it right
white lies never talk that is the their demise
twilight we accost never spare a life
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what is all this
there's blood on my wrist
got nothing but bliss
living this life but i'd love to resist
they love to submit
running amok and i'm nothing but pissed
wanting to quit
wanna get out but i'm stuck in a ditch
done with this shit
hope for the day that i never look back
gotten the itch all my decisions awaken the wrath
taking a drag
trying to listen if satan will laugh
plan of attack is i'm taking a tab
path of disaster we're fading to black
really wanna be the only one
i just want to stare into the sun
hit a blunt til i'm feeling numb
red rum red rum i am never done
head hunt head hunt no i never run
only want to sink into my grave
only want to live until i fade
never wanna see another day think i can try to go and live i dont wanna go and die
but i wont ever forgive what they want to say
live what they wanna say
give when they want to take
binge when they wanna see a mothafucka go into abyss but im not okay
page written wrong so i'm into the fray
feeling lost so long, i'm not living awake
i'm a bomb ticking off, think of digging my grave
ive been gone i've been lost so i'll sink in the hate, yeah
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6. |
Blind Faith
03:07
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voices never spoke to me
drowning in an open sea
life or death its poetry
it's heavens gate that's opening
you are free to leave but have fly with broken wings
dead inside a ghost to me
they chose to bleed for dopamine
no deceit, the only thing they know to sing
noticing at no degree not knowing what the omen brings
stole the peace, choke to breathe
holding grief with no release
hope is weak dont you see you cant go toe to toe with me
monster in my head and there's no way i can fight it
i'll build another bridge but one day i will go ignite it
i've never felt reliant on the ones close to my iris
tried to pry what's on my mind but never got used to the silence
i'm defiant
but my brain just lives in disarray
living life against the grain
moon against the dawn of day
light the fuse wrap the noose
you can choose your fate
nothing left for you to save
these opposites just dont relate
(chorus)
and these opposites just dont relate, no
still these voices never seem to change, hope
i've got nothing but myself left to blame
i've been living in my mind alone
one day ima find a home
and these opposites just dont relate, no
still these voices never seem to change, growth
i've got nothing but myself that's left to blame
still i try to keep my mind atoned
one day ima die alone
(verse 2)
silhouette of darkness and the anger i embrace
still i'm living apathetic towards the daggers in my face
i've been feeling like i'm dead when i'm lost inside escape
keeping nothing in my head there's just a zombie in my place
i'm erased
but the silence isn't new to me
words are only crudity
we live a life we're doomed to bleed
thinking i might die from pressure of this scrutiny
flowers that had grew deceit
you speak in tongues, your eulogy
and i often wonder why
we never know whats right instead we stare into the sky
so i'm looking towards the light i want to see right through your lies
getting tired of this life i am peeling off my disguise
i know that you will always hate
everything that i've been keeping under surface of this face
it's been hiding in my breath, my insides are all a mess
keep a diamond in my chest but it has no way to escape
(chorus)
and these opposites just dont relate, no
still these voices never seem to change, hope
i've got nothing but myself left to blame
i've been living in my mind alone
one day ima find a home
and these opposites just dont relate, no
still these voices never seem to change, growth
i've got nothing but myself that's left to blame
still i try to keep my mind atoned
one day ima die alone
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thinking that i've been betrayed
i have no way to escape
trapped like a rat in cage
facing my fate with the head of snake
drift into hate
lay in the doubt while we sink in the pain
sinking the blade
taking it out when you're digging your grave
into the fray
the innocence fades
but we're breaking away
who do we blame
this shit is so fake
their brains are so vacant
been thinking of shooting
or lighting the fuse
i dont think of the future
don't listen to rumors
eclipsing the lunar
we crawl from the sewer
dont think we wont do it
strife can take a toll
but i found another way to cope
it's brain control
afraid im gonna take this blade to throat
try take another life with this vacant soul
never want to back down cuz i stay provoked
only wanna lash out so the hate can grow
didn't know i was broken so lost in the moment
i'm taking the road that the sacred have chose
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8. |
Fallacy
02:09
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black on black im blacking out
mask on mask go grab it now
wrath is last i burnt my past
i'm slashing back i'm passing out
my future cracked
outlast the crowd
back all alone i've been lacking the doubt
where do i go when i'm blasting it out
back door is open
the calm in the storm
i have seen what's ahead so i'm blacking it out
grasping for hope
can't control these emotions
i'm losing my head so i'm lashing on out
back with rope no we do not play
back on bullshit they gonna say
black and blue bitch
we hang the noose if
you smack ya two lips
you seal your fate
go back in the fray
hand on your mouth no one hears what you say
black hole in motion
eternal erosion
all is life is provoked
when the masochists play
been fanning the flame
no will to live so i'm grabbing the blade
void has been opened
the silence awoken
the voices have spoken
go back to your grave
see what i know
never leaving with hope
don't know where else to go
lungs are breathing the smoke
all the demons are screaming for me to let go
but i'm bleeding the reasons to me are unknown
so just leave me alone
leave a king to his throne
when i look at myself all i see is a ghost
just see to believe i'm not pleading for peace
but i'll rebuild myself from the pieces i broke
never want to live another day
think i could try to stay awake until i'm laying in the flames
my brain could never maintain pain in the same way
stay placed in the fray
pray for the prey in the main veins
all of this passing the blame
only be masking the pain
only want to live til the day that my fate isn't me
want to dig up a grave and we hate what we say
and we hate that we bleed
but the hatred in me
just embraces the rain, it's the fate of a king
facing the swing of a blade shimmering
in his face don't relate to the pain that we
late the scene
don't embrace a believe
my god has been dead let's go pray to the beast
often it seems i've been lost in a dream
i'm not stopping til i'm in my coffin to sleep
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9. |
Infinite
02:30
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all days lack when the path is grey
i'll stare back in the black parade
still hate the frame dont play charades
i stay in place they retrograde
and i dont get what they believe
or what they can see
there's no vacancy
not another life of complacency
it's all same no place in their brain for me
everyone is different
i never see the difference
been lost inside dark and i want to see the day
lost of all of my innocence
these memories are dissonant
been working on a spark while they try to chase a flame
i don't relate
in this broken state
some days so hopeless
can't motivate
it's make or break
or its fade away
but know one day this'll culminate
(chorus)
go through days
but it don't do much
never had enough
(verse 2)
i tried to chase
these days i just lie awake
the world sleeping and my mind erased
im leaving on my own when i isolate
but i've been running in the path of a tidal wave
these moments never lasts why am i afraid
minutes always pass in an idle day
living in the past its a primal state
and you've been keeping all your secrets til they die away
i never learned to let go regret
gonna need to make a few mistakes if you ever want to take a step
hope to grow feeling so inept
but i've been falling to the shadows of my silouhette
it's just another day that i feel discontent
never tried to fix all the disonnance
hating that these feelings often misdirect
every thing that has been true nothing's infinite
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